My name is Leslie and I am an alcoholic. Welcome to my journal. I am attempting to grow from complete insanity (crazy as a loon) to semi-sanity and courage. Just a few short months ago, I almost died from my alcoholism. I have struggled with this progressive and heart breaking addiction for 20 plus years. By the grace of God, my caring Recovery Community, the wonderful staff at the UAB Treatment Program and the unconditional support of family and friends, I am alive and kicking today. The fact that I have not had a drink since June 2015 is nothing less than a miracle. I have been afraid all of my life which was a huge part of my disease. Fear is what locked me in a box literally drinking myself to death. Fear of living, fear of not living, and fear of everything in between, drove the insanity of my disease. I am working to challenge myself, get out of my proverbial comfort zone, to rid myself of the powerful force of that darkness one step at a time. The 1st quest in my journey to recovery, included a 3 week road trip from Birmingham, Alabama to San Francisco, California on Route 66 and following the Oregon Trail on my way home. This trip was over 6000 miles of driving and quite frankly, was life changing. I had never ventured much farther than my own back yard so this was truly a leap of faith. Was I scared? You bet I was. Did I overcome that fear? Only by faith. I will continue walking the path of recovery, facing my fears, one by one. The lessons I learn will be shared along the way. This is not an advice blog or a guide to perfection, merely my personal experiences as I muddle through this new way of thinking and living. It will be an adventure I would like to share with everyone.
A wise woman once told me, “Recovery is not a destination, it is a journey”. Ingenious! I didn’t see the beauty in that statement before, but now, my eyes are wide open. What a gift! Who knew that one day I would be grateful for my addiction? That same addiction that nearly took me out a year ago, is leading me down a path of self-awareness and peace. Without the beast of alcoholism and the gift of desperation, I would not be where I am today spiritually, emotionally, or mentally. God is doing for me what I could never do for myself. This new life is a trip! Enjoy the journey!